An Aimless Wanderer
On my way home last night, I decided to hail a cab. What? Laziness got the best of me, gimme a break. 
Anyway, the trip from where I work to where I live is fairly short – 20ish minutes even with moderate traffic. My only goal inside the taxi was cool down. This heat wave we’re all suffering from is crap, crap, and mega crap.
On this story, I missed my street.
Twenty meters after where I should have gotten off was when I only realized that I missed my street. It was as if an invisible force yanked me out of an empty daydream and slammed my cheeks against the vehicle’s passenger window and belted, “look!” Worse, the extra ten minutes of walk towards home turned into a heartbreaking epiphany: that right now, I’m an aimless wanderer.
All the other people and things around me became a collective blur. As what can be considered to be my depressing habit, I fell into a confused and blank state. I thought about what I have been doing for the last half year – the endless adult responsibilities, the worthless-at-the-end-of-the-day scheming, and simply the routines I go through everyday. I yearn for something different; something new, something thrilling. I long for something calming, something tranquil, something cleansing. Something! I know, however, that the varieties I currently ache for can’t and won’t come any time soon.
I wonder who also feel like they are not really heading towards any direction. Like they are trapped or stuck. Or if they do have a direction, if they are reconciled with it. I’m pretty sure that we beat the optimists 5 to 1… be honest! But, okay, I guess I’m not sure. So I’ll just hope.
April 25th, 2007 at 6:43 am
present!.. hahahahahahaha (taas ang kamay)
May 4th, 2007 at 1:57 am
2 kamay nakataas din dito… aimlessly wandering around right now actually, until a concrete direction pops up real soon (as in, by 29 June 2007)… lordy lordy lordy. I think i’ll still be feeling like this til I hit 40.
June 18th, 2007 at 5:58 am
hmmm…Mimon,35 YEARS OLD NA AKO AND GANYAN PA DIN NARARAMDAMAN KOHHH!!!..sometimes it’s so depressing, yung tipong “tumatanda ng walang kinalalagyan”..tulala at tuliro sa kawalan..very well said , friend..alabshu….
September 24th, 2007 at 2:00 am
We are all aimless wanderers. Paikut-ikot, pabalik-balik, paulit-ulit. Para saan ba lahat ng ito?